Six.
is the difference.

you know, Allah has his own ways of testing us, in many ways.
He sets upon me a path that will test the strength of my emotional muscles yet again.

Six.
still the difference.

Today I woke up having the most sweetest text that a boy could have given a girl.
Well, at least to me.

Six.
It won’t change the difference.

“Can you promise me something?”
‘What issit?’
“Don’t forget to have your breakfast…Makan byk sikit. And drink plenty of water. Please…”
’(:’

A person who always reminds me of Allah and my solat is sucha heartthrob.
Such sweetheart.
Yes, He is.
He did.

I probably have three more days to enjoy this sweetest moment before reality sinks in to get on with life.

And I am telling myself not to cry on Saturday.
Cos, on Saturday, we are breaking up.

~
if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
~

Allah knows best while we knoweth not. 

💚

As I sat on the bike, he turned his head to peep over his left shoulder.
He smiled and said, “Thank you!” I questioned, “Why?” He answered, “Thank you for being with me!”

We smiled and rode off.
That feelings was the most happiest I had for a very long time.

the answerS..yes..block letter ‘S’..plural…ANSWERS!

the answers for what i have been seeking all this while has been answered many many times. Just that i was blinded with my indenial state of mind.

Many times i seeked, and many times too He provided me with the answers, but i always say..’maybe not yet.’

so today, no, infact yesterday, like a slap on my face, i woke up and told myself…yesterday was already gone. there’s always tomorrow and tomorrow will always be better than yesterday, insyaAllah.

yang baik datang dari Allah, yang buruk dan hina datang dari aku sendiri.

and I now understand, why Allah crosses my path with him every now and then. He is training me to be stronger and better when seeing him, when seeing him with another person, when having him standing next to me but the distance is felt,  and to ensure that I continue to have faith before he sets me free to continue my journey in this world. He is training me to be my own soldier in my own war, not to make us get back together.

Praises be to Allah.

Like how i finally understood the term ’fate’ when i found mak praying next to me in the mosque on the same sejadah and sharing the same salam. He wanted to reveal the truth about mak and encik. They never disliked me, infact, they are fond of me. I was duped all this while.

After 3 years, I am finally over you.
that is why, “Verily, in remembrance of Allah, do heart find rest!” [13:28]

because when it pinches me bad, i always ask Allah to grant me calmness to overcome that instant emotion.

Alhamdulillah =)

And people asked, “how do you do long distance relationship?” “how do you survive?” I got no time now, but I’ll share over a cup of coffee or milk tea with a cheesecake for free..😜

The nicest thing that occurred today was Mak knocking on the door to say goodbye. We exchanged Salam and she smiled at me. I dunno why but that smile made me better.

Thank you, Mak.

One of the most sincere and happiest smile. You made me feel that I was d most prettiest. I thank you for that.

Indah
Terasa indah
Bila Kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa
Keinginan saling memiliki

Namun bila itu semua dapat terwujud dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang pernah terbayang
Menyatukan perasaan

Tetaplah menjadi bintang di langit
Agar cinta Kita akan abadi
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini
Agar menjadi saksi cinta Kita
Berdua.

❤
22/3/2012

I didn’t pray for what I want or what I need today. My prayers for myself can wait. Like everyone else, all I want is for a certain Sharifah Nadiah to wake up from her coma and her husband to gain strength.

My needs can wait.
The height of my hurdle is nothing comparing to what Hasmu has to face. I do not know him. All I noe, he is a Muslim brother whom my sister has already regarded as a brother.

We should treasure our loved ones cos we nvr know if goodbyes can even b sent if we were given such a test.

And night walks always make me feel so much better.

12am to 444am, Sunday, 18/03/2012.

Hamoe.

Maybe it is not shy. Just maybe, it doesn’t know how to express itself. It hides, it shuns, it avoids to say what it has to.

Maybe the emotion is the secret.
It is not shy.
Just a keeper.

😥